Check-In

I have felt such a wrestle most of this year about blogging. (Which is a good thing, hopefully it keeps me out of hot water.)  By the end of the summer, the inner conflict was going to a whole new level. I believe a lot of that conflict though is tied to the process of me meditating on his word in writing it out. Not just in how I present anything to anyone but also in what the Lord is working on in me.

As if I wouldn't write as much if I weren't blogging. As if I wouldn't think as much about my walk with God if I weren't writing. I think the conflict is hardest because I truly believe that I am in some ways going through a ‘parting of self’. I wish I knew how to explain that better. Maybe 'spiritual realignment' is still the most accurate term. I feel like old things are finally leaving and new things are coming in.  

However, because of all of that, I am coming up on some transitions and for the sake of time, it will just be easier to list them here. 

1. I believe that I have had a personal breakthrough just this month in my own walk with Christ. One that may or may not have been related to upbringing or church back ground.  I am not sure yet. I am still trying to figure it out. For me it is pretty big though.

2. Because of the above and because of my own hunger for the word, I want to lead bible study classes. I am still praying about the details. It would be nothing more than you, me and our bibles. –Let’s talk it out. (Interestingly enough there is a testimony here too.  I stopped facilitating classes in our Women's Ministry last year because I felt like God wanted to get some things right with me (no specifics at the time). I also did not feel that I was necessarily a "Leader". Now I want to get into the word and if that means I lead others at the same time, then I am pretty good with that!)

3. I am considering facilitating Bible Study for women outside of church, so that I can be more available to the nursery/toddler ministry inside the church….  –Yes, I know, it makes no sense to me either. I think the time will be mid-day (like a working mom's lunch hour.)  The kids will be in school and so no one will have to worry about sitters. I expect that everyone will arrive late and leave early since it's over a lunch break. That is perfect!  Come when you can. More to come...

4. Initially, I started blogging, not realizing what or why I was writing. Discovering that it was mostly testimony and getting myself comfortable talking about God in my daily life. Then later it became a tool that drove me to dig deeper. I committed to writing for a year. My year is almost up. I believe that I still have quite a few posts to sort through and so I will be writing in December. I am not sure if it will go farther than that. I do love the format of a webpage for documenting but I really write more for me than others.

5. I am considering still blogging but no longer sharing on Facebook. 

     * Mostly because I want to study more but ironically that makes me want to write.

     * Second, I really don’t think Facebook has a place in my life. I don’t know what that means for the Faith Unfolding Facebook page. Originally that was only created so that people that didn’t know me, could contact me without seeing pictures of my kids. It could still be used to share bible study information and some blog posts. However, I have an email address (faithunfoldingblog@gmail.com) so… maybe that FB page isn’t necessary at all! (I did temporarily delete the page but brought it back up because I committed to sharing it for a year and the year wasn't up yet). If you want to sign up for class information, shoot me an email.

      * Not only that but I still change a lot of posts after I publish them.  Ironically, I think that’s God’s way of making me become comfortable with ‘being a work in progress’. Anyway, I don’t want to advertise that one is up, since there’s a pretty good chance that a mediocre post will be ‘awesomer’ in 3 days!  Yes, I said that on purpose! J

 * Who knows, I may even stop blogging altogether. This might have already served its purpose…  I believe that it contributed to a significant change in my life and maybe that was all that was needed.

So, things all seem to be slightly changing direction again. I kind of like not knowing the specifics. What a huge growth spurt, I think that I am going through. I only wish that I had more time to really spell it all out. In his time, I know that all of the answers will come. I hate to pull the rug out from underneath you just when I think that things are starting to get good!  I guess you’ll just have to follow along to see what happens.  –Oh and get your bibles just in case.

Thank you for all of the prayers. I also pray for each of us and when you’re praying too, not only does it unite us but Matthew 18:20 always makes me think that united prayer is more powerful. -So really, thank you!

Have a beautiful 2013 (and 2014 just in case!)