A piece of the puzzle

Last July I told God that I would give my testimony at church in December. It would be a Christmas present to him. It took me forever to write and as the weeks drew into a close, I had finished but wasn't satisfied. I prayed and asked God to make my testimony mean something to someone else and not just me. I realized that I wasn't happy with what I'd written because I skirted the edges of where I've been. There wasn't any meat in the soup. So, I rewrote it. I shared it with the class the Sunday before Christmas.

In the weeks that followed I still felt like writing. I had been scribbling thoughts on random pieces of paper here and there but for some reason, I felt the need to put them together. I put a long post on Facebook. Then a couple days later the same thing happened. -Then again. I thought to myself, what on earth am I writing? Is this some sort of devotion? I wasn’t sure but I kept on writing...

Then I recalled another prayer that I prayed from an October Women's retreat. I asked God to stick his big ole' spoon into the belly of my soul and stir up any of those parts of me that might've settled to the bottom. I asked him to scoop them out and fill me up with more of him so that I could share it with others. Oh my, has he been scooping! He's been bringing up some things that haven't been in the light in a while.

I realize now that these posts are what he's scooping out. Some are heavy. Some are light. -That part about my testimony meaning something... Well, I see now that's what this is. My testimony. -A whole year’s worth. Where he's been in my life and where he's working with me now. Hopefully, for those who know me, they can also see evidence in me, that God was here.

I can’t help but think that it’s funny how this has laid out.  Had he told me from the beginning, that I should take a year to write a testimony; I think that I would’ve laughed at him. However, it has turned out to be such a blessing to me. I don't know what happens in 2014 but for now, I hope that these posts will be a blessing to you as well.

                                                                                                Love, Me